Real conversations with real women about the impact makeup has on their lives.
“I’d weigh myself in the morning and if I didn’t weigh under a certain amount then I wouldn’t eat until later.”Elizabeth, 22
“My relationship with my body and my weight has changed a lot. When I was in my last year of high school, I lost ten kilos. And then, to keep it off, I was really strictly controlling what I ate. I’d weigh myself in the morning and if I didn’t weigh under a certain amount then I wouldn’t eat until later. When I started not being able to do that; like when I was stressed, and didn’t have the energy to control my food as much, it became harder and harder to keep that ridiculous standard that I kept for myself.
Over the past three years, I’ve relaxed a lot, let go. Not worried about it as much. And I’m the fattest that I’ve ever been. But it’s not the worst I’ve felt about myself.
There have been situations where I’ve felt like I’ve had to wear make-up. I remember starting work at a job in March of last year, and everyone there was always wearing make-up, hair done, clothing on point. So I felt like whenever I went to work I had to get up super early to do like my full face, and my hair, and pick a full outfit. And it kind of felt the same at next job as well, cause some of the girls there would always wear make up and I was the only one who would turn up wearing just moisturizer. Some days when I had the energy I’d put on make up, and on other days when I didn’t, if I didn’t have a high self esteem that day, I’d feel super out of place.
But I feel like that feeling was mostly internal. If I’d ever bring it up or if anyone would say anything, it was almost always positive, like ‘how do you wear just moisturizer? I wish I could do that’.
When I’ve got my makeup on, I feel bomb as fuck. I’m always looking at myself in the reflections of mirrors and windows. I remember going out to a café with someone last year and I was going to something like a function afterwards, so I had a full face of make up on, and I just kept looking past them at the window. Just like, ‘shit, this contour though.’
If I was ever going to consider being a parent, then what I want to do is foster children who are about to age out of the system. Children who feel like they’re about to be abandoned, or left alone while they’re in this really important part of their lives. They’re just figuring out who they are, they need support at that time in their lives. I did.
I feel like I’d really be able to help at that point, because they’re human beings. They know who they are, they know what they want to do, they know some things about themselves. They have interpersonal knowledge. And I feel like that’s where I could really make a difference in peoples lives.”