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When I was in school I was very quiet. Then when I was in fifth year in school, I was going into a new class where all of my friends weren’t going and I didn’t want to be the shy kid.Kellie
So I was like, “I’m going to be the most confident person in this room, always” and I think people just believed that I was the most confident person in the room, and then, eventually, I think I believed I was the most confident person in the room.
How do you feel about photo editing tools like Facetune?
I think I’m fine with them, but I think it’s because I know that it’s all fake. I personally don’t think that they’re good for younger generations, because I think that they’re going to do a false sense of what is real and what’s not. And I think even, I think even some adults don’t really know that they’re all fake and that the world doesn’t look like a rose tinted lens, stuff like that.
When you say it’s all fake, how did you find out? Was it a gradual thing, or did someone tell you?
I think there is a difference between what people were presenting originally and then what their final product was. Sometimes you were looking at people and going “wait, this persons eyes are twice the size that they should normally be, so, they shouldn’t be that size!”
So, obviously, something has to be altered. And then obviously you see, there’s a couple of places that go, “well, here’s the original picture that this person uploaded and here’s what they ended up with.”
I guess for me, being in media, it’s easier to see what’s fake and what’s real because you can see what edits a lot better, and what alterations are like, a lot easier than the general public.
I mean, you’ve worked in media so you’ve got a bit of a unique insight there, you can really see it.
Yeah, completely. Especially knowing from in front of the camera and behind the camera, you know what can be altered and what can be changed and even as simple as, maybe not even a picture, but you can see like things in the media can get taken out and chopped and be told as a different story than what it actually is.
So when they create an app that can do this to change what your face looks like, people do it harmlessly and they go, “Oh, I’m just going to alter this one thing”. But then they go, “Oh, I’m just going to alter this one thing, and I look great, and I get lots of likes on it”, and then the next time they go “I’m just going to alter this one thing, but also I’m just going to blur this background and it’s going to look nice” and then eventually six months down the line they’re changing everything about their face and it’s not really a legitimate picture anymore.
What kind of impact do you think that has on young women?
Oh I think it’s completely… it’s so disruptive. I think it’s setting, especially… we were so young when social media came out. Social media came out when we were like 16, 17, like that was when the first things happened and we didn’t have those apps where it was facetuned.
So all your awful pictures that you’re real embarrassed of from when you were sixteen, well, that’s what I was like when I was sixteen. But now, sixteen year olds have these apps and have all social media and social media is such a norm now that when they are doing stuff and they’re photo editing, it’s that everybody is photo editing, and that’s the norm. And that’s okay. But you don’t what peoples self-esteems, at such a young age – how it’s going to have an impact on that.
They could just hate themselves for the rest of their lives not realizing why. They could go, “oh, I’m shit”, not realizing that the whole world is fake.
How do you think social media has impacted your self esteem?
I don’t know how I think it’s impacted my self esteem. Because I think… I don’t actually know.
I don’t think it’s affected me but I don’t think it’s not affected me.
I think because I got through my stage of not knowing who I was… well, I was fortunate enough to know who I was by the age of seventeen, eighteen. So that when social media came around and everyone was changing what they looked like, I was actually like, “well, actually I don’t care what I look like in pictures because I’m really funny in real life”. I’m real, I’m a nice person. So I think by the time it came around I was like, “I’m happy with who I am.”
I don’t think it’s affected me, but I can see how it could affect other people.
Because you figured out who you were really on, do you think you compare yourself less to other people than other people might?
Yes. Well, yes and no.
I don’t compare myself in like, “oh, I really hope I look pretty in that picture” but I definitely think that my self worth is a lot more dictated towards how well I do my job, how good I treat my friends, how happy I am in general.
I don’t think it’s like “oh, this picture got 400 likes so therefore I’m the greatest thing since sliced bread”. I think it’s more like “am I doing well in where I need to be and, like, am I progressing?”.
And what was the process like when you were a teenager, of learning to love yourself? How did you go through that?
I don’t know. I guess… so, my experience was different in that when I was in school I was very quiet. Then when I was in fifth year in school, I was going into a new class where all of my friends weren’t going and I didn’t want to be the shy kid.
So I was like, “I’m going to be the most confident person in this room, always” and I think people just believed that I was the most confident person in the room, and then, eventually, I think I believed I was the most comfortable person in the room.
Because it was kind of, a fake it until you make it situation and it worked and now it’s like, “oh, I am the most confident person in the room.”
So, makeup. What’s your relationship with makeup like?
Uh, I wear makeup so that I don’t look tired.
But I wouldn’t say that I have any experience with it.
I wouldn’t know how to do any of the tips and tricks that all the people know how to do. I don’t know how to contour, don’t know how to do eye-shadow, but I know that if I put concealer under my eyes it’ll make me look like I don’t need four cups of coffee.
In Ireland, what do you think beauty standards are like?
Um, Ireland in general I think are pretty, I think they can be pretty confident people in that. But in general in the blogging world, and I think more people are following the Irish blogging world now, I think the beauty standards are set too high.
For bloggers, people are getting unrealistic standards again and it’s just turning into negativity. People are like, “oh, look at her, she doesn’t actually look like this” and, they’re right but, it’s just turning people into bitter spiteful people.
Whereas, if it wasn’t like that, I think Ireland has a certain like, notion that if, like, this person is doing well, we can smack them down so I think if people are beginning to get unrealistic expectations they get very annoyed by that.
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Photos and video recorded by Eoin O’Sullivan: https://eos-film.com/